Category: Getting to Know You
Hey all,
Some of you may recognise my name from months or years ago. Yeah, I'm the same person. And not proud of it, at all. Back then, I was an immature little twerp. I said things to people that weren't nice at all, and basically I thought I was top of the world.
Ugh. Trust me, I'm never, ever going back to that again. Hope I'm not as obnoxious as before. Really, really sorry to anyone I offended.
-Ellie, AKA Ellie2810 for anyone that recognises that.
new here, so no idea of your history, but props to you for apologizing and owning up to your behavior
Yeah, I was a right arse. Really ashamed of myself. It makes me think, "Wow, I was immature."
Good for you. It takes a lot t own up to our istakes, and even more to live by our new convictions.
Thanks.
Hmm, what to say on this?
Well, we were all immature once. Some of us worse fools than others, even if it was before the Internet and there is no record of it now.
I have no real perspective on how hard it must be being young on the Internet. I think it's really easy to overlook that difficulty. I think it's brave of everyone on here who has come forward like that.
Nobody dropped out of the chute mature, though. And it's kind of disingenuous how often that word 'immature' gets thrown around, most often as a self-righteous way to say 'I don't like that'.
Agreed. On some of the rants, people just gang up on one specific person and that person used to be me, but now I realise why.
GreyWaves I don't visit the Zone often, so I am not aware of the things you said that you are referring to in this thread, other threads or your profile. Not many people apologise for things they have said a long time ago, even though many of us have said things we wouldn't say now. I wonder however, what has prompted you to change? What has caused you to have different views now to the views you had back then? What has caused you to choose to be less offensive now than you used to be?
Hmm... I'm not sure. I think it was... Well, I left the Zone after that because "everyone was being mean to me." A few months later something... Less than pleasant happened to me. I realised that I'd been horrible because it was pointed out to me by someone I thought I liked. I decided to come back on here but then I remembered all the things I'd said and I just felt... Ashamed? Angry? Yeah, that's about it. I think I just grew up, or matured or something.
Well it's good to evolve and to be a different and better person than you were a few years ago.
Sadly, it was only in February or something this year that I changed.
Everyone grows and matures with time. A lot of people act the way you use to OP, because they're insecure in themselves; There's a lot of Zone members who are still that way. Heck, I'd be most probably lying if I said I never use to act similar in life; It's all about trying to make oneself feel superior to everyone else because again, they are just so miserable with their current situation; It is, as you've admitted, a case of growing out of it, and if you can then admit to your behaviour, props to you; not everyone will ever admit to it.
Like I said, thanks, it also means a lot to me for people to... Reassure me, because I'm still a bit insecure.
the fact that you can come out here and admit that you don't like the person you used to be, or how you acted says a lot about you. there are many people who would not be able to admit to such a thing, even if they believe it themselves. life is a learning experience, and anyone who tells you that they have never been ashamed of the way they have previously acted, is simply not being honest with themselves. you should be credited for your honesty.
Pardon my bluntness, but why make a board post about this? It's not that I don't think what you are doing is noble and all, but I would consider it a much greater act of maturity if you apologized to the people you hurt directly. Talk is cheap, and the only way to build bridges is to make a fresh start and put a better image out there I just don't see the need for a board post about it. None of us would ask you to be perfect, we just ask for respect. This is just my two sence on the matter and I'll stick to my opinion even if it isn't popular. Again, big props and best of luck certaintly getting to know the members of the sight may be a good human experience.
Mainly because I wasn't sure who I actually hurt.